It's just not in my DNA to be goal-oriented.
It's not encoded into my information system.
I grew up with a people who never used the words "next week".
We dreamed of how nice something would be, and then we got up and went to watch tv.
So my informative years went by without that goal-oriented data-set, and they were years of truly wild abandon and reckless living.
Lessons about a future were supplanted by the lessons I was living as I witnessed the grown-ups in my life who laid idly by, lamenting their misfortunes while neglecting to prevent a repeat in the generations to follow.
to be fair, there was little opportunity to prepare a future for poor people in a poor country, and none of us had imagined our lives would have taken us outside that arena. We all arrived here surprised and stunned. Deer in the headlight of American life.
