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why do I only pay attention to pain? I mean, thousands of emotions sweep through me daily and yet I never question why I'm smiling or why I feel great but the moment something hurts, I spend days feeling it. One bad feeling in 10,000 and I give it my entire day, sometimes weeks. If something doesn't hurt me I don't give it a thought. Only things that hurt are real to me. I feel that there's a lesson in the things that reach my core and in order for something to enter my core, it has to dig its way in, and that takes pain. Happiness and joy are surface, pain is profound, deep. But this year, I will make an effort to feel the good stuff more than the bad. ... well - i'll try.